About me.

From a child, I was put into care, not having lived with my real parents for very long.I moved through various foster homes and children’s homes right up to the age of eighteen. some of the foster parents that I lived with abused me and my twin brother David and other children in their so called care.This abuse and lack of parental love had a huge effect on my life and still does.My childhood was plagued with problems, health issues and loneliness.I sought answers from an early age.I was not to be programmed like most people or conditioned by society or my peers.I was myself and was forced to think for myself from a very early age.When a child goes through trauma at an early age it sets ones thinking pattern in a different way to most other people who have not known hardness.That thinking pattern opens up ones mind, to other goings on within and outside our world.I became sensitive in many ways.I searched for answers. I turned religious and desperately needed to know the answers to many questions.My early life was surrounded by strange phenomenon .I was fortunate enough to have lived a large part of my life within mid Dorset, surrounded by wonderful countryside, hills, forests and wildlife.I was often left to my own devises and roamed the Dorset downs alone at night to watch wild animals and to be alone, away from humans, noise , traffic and horrid smells to be with nature at a more spiritual level.I watched the animals from childhood. I saw badgers and got to know them; they were part of my life; the deer ,owls, snakes and river fishes were my life. They meant more to me than humanity:but what i really needed to know was, was there more to life.? does God exist ? What was my future ?. From an early age ,I saw strange craft in the skies . I saw them hundreds of times throughout my child hood and early adult life.When I used to visit the downs at night , I got more than I bargained for.I loved it and it became the main theme in my life.I felt privileged to have witnessed so much strange phenomenon, but what really bugged me was why the rest of humanity was totally oblivious .My main goals now are to spread the word of truth. I find it so more important than my zoological work.It a huge paradox that humans have not been told the truth by authorities and that so many people think that many subjects are mumbo jumbo.Well that is for the individual to decide for themselves. We all start from somewhere, but there are so many people that were born just yesterday!Knowledge is gained by reading and listening. Intelligence is learned by experience.Truth is known by opening ones  mind.

In this section of my website, I would like to include the controversial subjects that many people especially in the western world are blind too. There will me many folk who will be disappointed in me adding this section. They will not have realized that I had this side to me, unscientific, off with the fairies, little green men and all that nonsense!
Think what you wish. I am prepared to be ridiculed. It should not have a bearing on my other natural history subjects. At the moment I have no other place for it except in here, as I do not want to form a whole new website.
There are many subjects that I have always found fascinating from a very early age; telepathy, ghosts, psychic ability, premonition, life after death, coincidence and many other subjects that mainstream science chooses to ignore.
We live in changing times though and some of the subjects listed above have been studied by many mainstream scientists including psychologists, medical doctors, and psychiatrists and so on. There is changing opinion within the scientific fraternity in regards to many controversial subjects, as there is proof that many of them actually exist.
People may have theories, and people may know facts. It is very strange that all of the subjects listed above actually exist. We have been conditioned to believe that they do not. They would not occur as subjects if they did not exist. People have not talked about the bogey man for thousands of years, there has been accounts of sightings, no school of thought, no anecdotal evidence in regards to it. The chances are that it does not exist; at least as a physical identity.
Many folk may make a connection with big cats in Britain and mumbo jumbo nonsense. I do not class them as being related. I see the big cat phenomenon as being physical and just another part of none native animals free living in the UK. There may be many people who also believe in free living large cats in non native lands and also be into the so called non scientific, or fringe science; that is fine, it just means that the people who are fascinated with mysteries are interested with all those kinds of subjects. They have open minds and it is all lumped within the same boat. I must admit that a lot of subjects are too extreme and I personally think that they are damaging. There are some kinds of silly ideas being spread across cryptozoology sites that have no scientific proof whatsoever and do not conform even to the laws of physics. These subjects only do harm to the real subjects. People will not take any of it seriously if some folk talk of impossibilities and other seemingly nonsensical stories that filter through some of these kinds of sites. There may be a realm in which zoo form phenomenon exists, but we must be very careful when relating such topics within the subject.  Crypto zoology has a valid place, and there are many excellent crypto zoologists that have written great stuff and do great research. Off course the subject has to exist , and I myself am involved in the subject but often feel that the reason as to why the subject is not taken seriously is because of all the baggage that surrounds it. I have been on two Center for fortean zoology (C.F.Z )expeditions to remote areas of the world to help search for two cryptids. I now believe that both these animals, the yeti and the orang pendek exist. I, along with the other members of the C.F.Z found evidence.Crypto zoologists need to pass these findings on to the relevent authorities, but because we are not taken seriously by most scientific establishments, the revelations that we uncover are just not known. What a shame.